"Make me wanna holla"

That's an excerpt from "Inner City Blues" by Marvin Gaye, which I'm learning for a show that I have at the end of this month. I'm pretty excited, I've found a really awesome group of talented musicians...that's one great thing about Memphis, never a lack of talent.

I talked to them a little about what kind of sound I'm trying to produce, and coincidentally we're all on the same wavelength. This will make about...a year since I've actually performed on stage. There's a little bit of nervousness, but not too much. I've spent so much time writing songs in that time that I took of, so I have a lot to work with. Also, I now have a keyboard to work with, and will start practicing that for some future shows possibly.

So that's fun. One thing acccomplished here. The other thing is...well, I'm meeting with someone on Friday. A really awesome girl. I don't want to talk about that too much, but i"ll expound later.

In other news, the old friend that wrote me didn't seem to be too serious. I extended my hand, like I did before...but i think there's only so many times you can put yourself out there. I don't know why he feels the need to act that way. I'm all about reconciliation. But, i can't let that prospect overshadow what's happening in my life, and who I'm meeting and all the great things that are going to happen. He is just one person, and does matter - but at the same time, i receive such overwhelming love and support from so many people, there's no room to feel sad anymore.

I guess...whenever he figures out what he wants to say, I'll still be here. I have compassion for this person.

anywhoo...so my job. It's a hate/love thing. I love the folks i work with they're awesome, but...the job itself can suck a fat one. BUT...it's paying the bills at this point and that's all that matters. I struggle with feelings of inadequacy in some areas...but I'm trusting that God will help me through all of of this. It's just hard to remind myself of that at times.

Here's to pressing on...