New affirmation...and grudges

So I haven't written in a while. This has fairly because I've been so busy working, and also because I've been busy planning for my trip in the next few months.

If i step foot back in Tennessee, it will be too soon.

So I'm currently not speaking to my brother. I don't feel too bad about this. It's mainly the fact that he's a compulsive liar, dishonest, and disrespectful. So different from me and my sister that I don't understand how we can be part of the same family. Is it wrong that I have friends that I consider closer than my own brother?

I don't' think so. You can only try to understand someone so many times, to see that they have nothing going for themselves, and that they're the kind of person that if they're in deep shit, they'll try to drag you along with them. I don't think it's just this country I feel misplaced in, it's my whole family. I often feel like i want to restart the line again with my family when I get married.

So my peoples are from the south - i personally don't see anything to be prideful about. The southern part of the United States has been one of the most disgusting, poorest, bigoted, areas I've ever had the unfortunate pleasure of experiencing. I wouldn't wish where I live right now on my worst enemy ( I reserve Seattle for that).

It's not like I think my new residence will be peaches and cream, but I know that they will be significantly better than where I'm living and what I'm doing now.

Just a few more months to go...the wheels have been in motion. after next week...some things will be set in stone, and I can get the hell out of dodge.