Being Tested

Ah.

So a series of events in the past few days have brought up a slough of memories. In particular, seeing a person who was once a close friend and testing my reaction to it.

The first event was actually to be expected. There have been two instances in which I've had to forcefully come into contact with people who have been less than trustworthy. When people hurt you it's very hard to forgive. Due to my faith, I know that I had to forgive these people, and I did. It's been known that to truly feel free and released from something, you have to be able to forgive.

That being said, I am not anxious to invite the mediocrity that was associated with these individuals back into my life. Harsh? Possibly, but when I've experienced what living truly is, and also what true friendship is, then it's hard to go back and invite something that isn't real but only face value back in. So yah, I was tested this past month, and past week.

Let me tell ya, the people who have the audacity to act as if nothing has ever happened, hah. Things that have occurred between others, something that needs to be address. To sit idly and pretend like everything is ok, well it's more of an insult. Perhaps I live in the real world, and have learned from my mistakes. While others are still under the delusion that their actions and integrity are intact.

I may be just a tad premature in thinking these these individuals have no kind of conviction about the way they reacted when it came down to the wire, but I have not seen any evidence to dictate otherwise. But I can be civil. In the end, I've endured a lot...but have not suffered.